Failed Attempt

You always tried to make me question everything about myself...

My tastes, my wants, my friends, my goals, my opinions.

And, for awhile...

I lost myself in your control and deception.

Too fearful of what might happen if I stood up,

And finally walked away.

And so, I became a shell of myself.

Fake smiles, forced laughter, secret tears.

Void. Empty. Vacant. Numb.

You tried to rob me of MYSELF,

And MYSELF is something I forgot I loved,

For years while in your care.

Until ONE GLANCE....

That's it, one glance in the mirror

Mascara running down with the steady flow of tears,

That could not slow their flow.

And that fear, and intimidation flowed out of my heart, mind, and spirit

In that split second of a glance.

And I finally walked away.

Unafraid.

And my days have been brighter.

My breaths have been easier.

My numbness removed.

And I see myself as my Heavenly Father sees me...

Beautiful

Worthy

Enough

And I love MYSELF...which is something you never did.

You did not break me.

You did not take away my belief in love.

You did not destroy my faith.

You did not change WHO I AM.

You lose.