Then open them to join the light of a new day
The last and first of these moments are always consumed with thoughts of you
They are both my joy and my fear
To possess the high regard and genuine care of another soul
Can be so uplifting and so dreadfully terrifying at the same time
If you never love me, I will lose nothing
If you never touch me, I will miss nothing
I'm safer in my world of independence
Where loneliness is just a quick visiting enemy
That shows its ugly face briefly
But is easily chased off by distraction of any and every kind
But love?
Love has a violent way of wearing an attractive face
Of digging through a ribcage
With no concern of the blood and guts it eats through
To make its way into a heart that fights vulnerability like the plague it is
I look into your eyes
And drown there
My natural reaction to run away
As though my life depended on it
But when I linger there
Beyond that horrifying "run for the hills" first second
I can see myself in the reflection
And suddenly want to reside there for the next 50 years or so
I guess joy and fear can coexist as a healthy balance
I could be completely wrong
Probably
My point is...
I am choosing to be happy
Even though I am petrified
So... Look into my eyes
And drown me, please
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